The month of the Dino

That’s right, it’s back!

30 days 30 photos did so well that when I was asked by a handful of people if I was continuing the series I said “sure am!” I’m doing things a little differently this time though, I will still be doing the blog informing you about life, sunshine, my roller coaster, ideas and inspiration that surrounds me but also you will be following my little buddy! For the month of Oct I will be adventuring and living an everyday life of LoHo right along with my little guy who will be in all my mini POLAROID photos!

As a little kid my dad was one of my guiding forces. I always looked up to him and wanted to be surrounded by him because I thought he was the greatest thing on earth, right next to my mom. He spent the day in the city at the top of a big office building, traveling all over to far off lands at times... I had no real idea what he did but in my head I thought he was a king, 007, Superman or a Jedi Knight... don’t get me wrong I knew he came home in a suit but I couldn’t help but think of him as the majestic figure I had made him to be.

When I was 6 or 7 I remember coming up to him one day and giving him my little translucent lime green patasaurus dinosaur and told him to keep it in his pocket so I could always be with him and as my little brother watched me hand over my toy he had to get in on the action handing my dad an orange taradactle telling him “every time you stick your hand in your pocket you will remember us” and sure enough my dad said he carried those little guys in his pocket for almost a year through buisness meetings and everyday endeavors before they went on the never ending adventure at the dry cleaners. I know objects are just objects but they can also remind us of people and moments that make our world.

All in all, I hope you all enjoy the next month as I continue my adventure.
Forever Young, Forever Adventurous, Forever Yours.
-L

Day 30

Photo - Fully Bared




As I said on day one “I’m single like a dollar, for the next 30 days I plan on having you as my relationship, I will be honest with you and willing to share my life, so get ready I’m taking you on a ride!!!” And I hope I have, I know I have skipped days and kept you waiting but like any amazing relationship you will have push, pulls, and obstacles. You will share laughs and sorrow, you will be made to think and you will learn when you open yourself and are willing to not only think about yourself but another person or in this case my followers. I feel that this project has taken me further than I thought it would. It was fun and amazing getting feedback I loved watching my stats like a nerd and finding out that people in 5 other countries started to follow me. It has been a source of therapy to sit down and go through things, feel them and recognize that yes, I am alive and this is life both beautiful and a closterfuck.

30 Days, 30 Photos, I said, I would and I did what I said... Thank you to all the people who were apart of my 30 days of July, for without you I would be story-less and thank you to everyone who looked, loved and kept coming back, may you find your adventure or what makes you tic and go after it, put yourself out there instead of just talking about what you want to do... Remember the little engine that could... I think I can, I think I can... Chooo Choo!

All the best and much love :)
-L

Today:
Song: The National - Fake Empire
Quote of the day: “How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” - Winnie the Pooh
Fav food consumed today: Fellini’s Salad w/ Ranch
Craving: King of Pops
Drinking: Diet Sierra Mist w/ a splash of Strawberry Kiwi
Random fact: Whenever I finish a project, there is no greater feeling then showing what I’ve done, the feedback and the look of people enjoying what i’ve done excites the Hell out of me... I guess you could say it makes the coffee and days of little sleep all worth it...

Day 29

Photo - My Mind




OMG... I am running on empty and need to sleep... I know this is not going to happen and having to work in a few short hours, finding time to get my photos organized, printed, writing finished, poster made, new hair cut and finding the perfect outfit is making me want to pass out and roll down a mountain full of grass to gain the excitement I am oh so urning for at the moment. (And yes, that was one long run on sentence).

The last real show I did was in October and I was due for a new challenge to keep my creative on it’s feet. I know when I am in certain moods I pour out with different kinds of inspiration and when it comes to putting my work on display... Oh man... I am my hardest critic and the biggest procrastinator yet I also love my ideas and what I do. The life of the creative is a roller coaster, I have epic highs and manic lows (in which I try to be a hermit for). My life is a ball of excitement, living in a city that if I wanted to I could always find the next party, show or awesome person, also a place to get lost and sometimes fall victim to the idiocracy of labels and social status. Truth is, I don’t want to care about anything except what makes me happy and that shows me that no matter what, I’m worth it and so is it, person, place, or thing.

So, yeah, this is my mind... ADD as FUCK! But that’s what makes me creative, the fact of the ever going and never sitting still. Small ideas can turn into beautiful butterflies and how many people does it take to screw in a lightbulb?!

Today:
Song: Bat For Lashes - What's A Girl To Do?
Quote of the day: “I go to sleep with a vague idea and wake up with and icon.”
Fav food consumed today: The Local - BBQ Sandwich
Craving: Mini Corn Dogs
Drinking: Diet Coke
Random fact: Whenever I look at the sky, I try and find awesome clouds that look like animals and whenever I look down and see clover, I look for four leafers!

Day 27

Photo - The Loho-Claw




No matter who I meet or where I go, I always give a tiger claw! It's a certain little something that takes you away from the norm and gives the people around me a fun and crazy vibe. I enjoy people, I enjoy making them relax, to get creative and make faces along with me. Life is so serious all the time that by giving a CLAW and a RAWR we are taking a mental chill pill and truly enjoying the moment... in which smiles run high!


Today:
Song: Santigold - Disparate Youth
Quote of the day: One day I want to honestly say... "I made it."
Fav food consumed today: Strawberry Yogurt and Granola
Craving: Beer Battered Mozzarella Sticks w/ Ranch
Drinking: Pink Lemonade
Random fact: In high school I loved watching all the design shows and coming up with ideas to make living spaces that much more enjoyable... So meeting Sabrina Soto and Bobby Berk was a nice touch!

Day 25

Photo - Lights and Adventures




Sometimes after a long day of doing what seems like everything for everyone else, I like to take an adventure and show someone who takes my mind to prettier skies what life is about. Good company, fine food and that look that you get when everything around you doesn’t matter because you can’t stop smiling. If I had my choice I would stay in this blissful place, I like getting lost, the feeling of being high off the world and the beauty around you.

Today was one of those days, everything was moving so fast and the realization of how quick the show was coming to me. I needed to slow down and thankfully for me I had made plans for just that. I went to visit one of my favorite chefs and he ended up treating my beautiful distraction and me to dinner which he made in front of us and did the whole 10 yards of food, drinks, and dessert! Afterwards, I drove the long way home and stopped by one of my favorite glowing sculptures. During the day they just look like giant white tubes but once the sun goes down the lights scatter the sky and I can’t help but stare at the beauty. The rest of the night was full of those moments where you wished time could stop, but exhausted from the real world of life, I actually closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.

Today:
Song: Mr Little Jeans - The Suburbs
Quote of the day: “Your Beliefs don’t make you a better person, your Behavior does.”
Fav food consumed today: Varasano’s Spinach, Pep, Garlic, Mushroom, Moz Pizza
Craving: Milkshake... one of those 2am - 4am Steak-n-Shake ones!
Drinking: Cherries Jubilee
Random fact: A lot of people have said I’m a player but I don’t see myself like that... in fact if you had to call me anything I would say it would be old fashioned and why you ask, well I’m not Biggie, I don’t crush a lot. I like to treat women like they are the best thing on earth because they are and that’s how they should treated. Plus, I like courting girls, getting inspired and thinking of ways to make them feel special. Of course I like to be naughty but nice comes with it... Santa doesn’t know what to do with me for the holidays!

Day 24

Photo - Dapper Doppelganger




Yes, it’s true, I look like Joseph Gordon Levitt. As a kid everyone said “You look like the kid from Angels in the Outfield” and that turned into “You look like the guy from 500 Days of Summer” and that I don’t mind at all because that would mean I have great style, awesome playlists following my life and Zooey Deschanel as a best friend and what’s wrong with that?!

Being called out for being the female version of him happens every so often but more recently and it’s pretty funny because when I went to open my mailbox this morning I surprisingly found him on the cover of my monthly subscription to GQ magazine. I feel it is ironic, 2 almost 3 years ago I felt like I was living the real 500 Days of Summer yet it was the 500 Days of some other pretty girl, the same things went through my head even though, I’m pretty sure everyone has their own “Summer”.

As a real person not only is he talented but he’s amazing, helping people and pushing people to go after their dreams, to set goals and run at them as if you were a steam roller. As the roles he picks, they are pretty perfect, fun, different and challenging kind of like me and my life, or so I think ;) At first glance you will see a fun loving, outgoing, happy go lucky person but sit down and have a real conversation with me and find that the complexity is there and that I am more than what meets the eye. So, in this case we might look alike but we are also pretty outstandingly fabulous, if you ask me.

Today:
Song: The Dandy Warhols - The Last High
Quote of the day: “Legend says, when you can’t sleep at night, it’s because you’re awake in someone else’s dream.”
Fav food consumed today: Fellini’s Salad and Slice of Pep.
Craving: Warm Brownies stuffed with PB drenched in fudge and surrounded by vanilla ice cream!
Drinking: Diet Coke with a splash of cherry
Random fact: I love magazines and getting them in the mail. I have subscriptions to GQ, Bazar, Rolling Stone, Playboy, Vanity Fair and Esquire!

Day 23

Photo - Sorry Not Sorry




Today’s entry will be an open letter, you know who you are, for everyone else, this is how I view things and feel about a certain situation.

Let me start out by saying, you are truly a beautiful soul, who cares so much for the world around you and I loved the time that we shared together. Maybe if things were different, things could have been different but between us there was a bump. I know today was your birthday... I honestly was at work but I also honestly feel for me to come celebrate with you is disrespectful on so many levels. Of course, I want you to have the perfect day, for you to be happy and enjoy the people and moments around you but I don’t think your day was suppose to include me, which is why I did not come. For us to hangout is hard for I never liked you as a friend and for me to be around you is not only hard but the way I feel it should be.

I met you at a time when I needed you... I need distraction, I needed inspiration, I needed to feel, but in getting you I also gained a roller coaster of feelings. You had a boyfriend yet you led me on, you made me believe I could have a chance... You liked me, I know you did... but you also twist things, you hurt me... for I am not an object, I am not here for you to figure yourself out with. Being me has it’s ups and downs and I honestly think you couldn’t see past my orientation, that yes, underneath it all I am a girl because otherwise I feel like things would be different and maybe not so vanilla.

I think you hurt me the most though, when your boyfriend left you and you came to me, I was the one you cried to, the one who tried to keep you together and within a week’s time you found some everyday Joe on okc and started dating him... to me you were dating both of us... In a harsh way, I felt like I was your emotional part of a relationship while he was there for the physical and being what I have been through and my own personal set of moral code, I didn’t mind at first but a game of three never lasts and things must change because it is not fare to have your cake and eat it to.

Your relationship with him became to hard for me to handle, I hated watching the both of you, yet I was continually being invited to all the things you guys did, dinners, outings with your kids, weekly drag shows and the constant spending of money that I was magically growing on trees. I hated that you would call me because you wanted to see me, then have him there cuddling together where I could hear him say “I love you” after two weeks time... It threw me off and I was getting over it because yes, every time I looked at you, I liked you and you showed me interest back and because you could have us both I started to talk to other people as well, but I never brought them around you or flaunted the fact that I also was someone that was desired and that others wanted and not just the emotional but the whole package. I could see the wear and tear on the XY chromosome and started feeling sad for him, the way you thread us together was not fare but it’s the way you chose to handle things, that having someone was your way of being safe and happy, but it had to be either him or me and the fact is, he is good, he is safe, he is stable, as much as vanilla as he is to me he is perfect for what you are looking for. If you are not willing to go out on a limb and taste the fruit that has never been tasted, then there shouldn’t be any desire for what you never had. As much as I don’t like him, I do honor the fact that he loves you and that you have chosen to be with him, and he does deserve respect.

Once I took steps back and started liking other people, distancing myself from your relationship with him and having him blow up in my face (as an animal instinct will kick in) I watch everything I predicted to happen but at light speed. I told you he would probably ask you to move in with him and marry him within a year and within four months “BING” I didn’t think you would get pregnant either but in being straight it is a lot easier to conceive children and in 9 short months just about a year of being together you both will be parents. I not once have acknowledged the fact of this matter till now and I will not share my thoughts past this. I do however hope that you are happy and wish you everything and more. Unfortunately for you, I cannot be apart of what we use to have and as said before being a friend to someone who I never looked at as a friend is asking me to do something that I honestly can’t. So truthfully, I am sorry but I also have taken by backbone back and will be able to eventually give all of me to someone else who not only wants it but deserves it.

To all the adventures that lay at your feet, best wishes.

Today:
Song: Mumford and Sons - The Cave
Quote of the day: “I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I believe in miracles.” -A.H.
Fav food consumed today: Bean and Cheese Burrito w/ Sour Cream and Jalapenos
Craving: Pancakes
Drinking: Water
Random fact: As a kid and even now, when I find someone that I connect with I love them with all I have, this is both a beautiful and scary thing...