Day 22

Writers Block

... ... ... yep, that’s how I feel... I sit down to write and blog and my mind just sits and scans... I love writing, I love writing well and as I sit down to write, I just stare at the screen fumbling over my words... I feel like they aren’t coming together and blah blah blah... I’ve been between K’s and my house trying to put things together and all I want to do is sit on the couch, watch movies and catch up on sleep... because let’s face it, I have barely closed my eyes in the last few weeks.

I love creating and doing this series... but it is a lot of work, I have my normal life and then add an everyday personal journal of my journey and making things come together over art... I feel like I’m back at college during finals week... I thrive off of it and like the end result of having everyone come together and view what i’ve been doing but I will be so happy to enjoy my b-day month going back to my 1-2 blog updates a week! I know that I am a few days behind now and as I try to catch up, I am still creating and let’s face it, if you are my true friend you know all about Loho time... no matter how much I love you or want to be there right on time, I am always late... I always show up or call but I am forever late... I hate it but this is me, I live in my own world and I don’t mean to be inconsiderate it’s just how my inner clock works. My mind is the same way... what takes an average person to do something times it by 3 and you have me... but when I get there or finish whatever I’m working on... I never disappoint. So as I’m wishing time would stand still for a few days I will continue to push on and I hope you guys can bare with me as I not only catch up but filter through my head. Thank you.

Today:
Song: Just Jack - Writers Block
Quote of the Day: “Things I’d rather be doing right now... You... :)”
Fav Food Consumed Today: Cheese Pizza
Craving: Shepards Pie
Drinking: H2o
Random Fact: I fantasize throughout the whole day... I make up visual stories in my head which makes me get those childish like smiles that stretch to my ears with a hint of evil... because being inner stimulating is fun and the hope that I may one day act out my thoughts is want keeps me going like a bouncy ball!

Day 21

FaceTime

Today was a day of showing face... I like to support the people who support me, and in doing so we show up. Sing for Your Life was down to the final 3 and with T by my side we watched them sing their little hearts out. After hanging out for a hot min, I took T home and jetted out to Marietta to meet up with Killah K and watch the drag show in support of Winter and while I was driving my way up there I reached out to GotYeah to see if she wanted to join in on the entertainment of Lebusted... (Lebuzz) and sure enough she came through. We ended up having a blast being dorks and sharing some good conversation.

At one point in the night someone came up to talk to me... now I try to like everyone but this is somewhat hard to do at times specially when every time I see this person, they get under my skin... the way they talk to me and how I feel like they are always trying to one up me or make me feel as I am not going along on the right path towards my goals and future. I understand that in working for corporate I can gain positives but I also know that I get worked up and stressed out in doing things for other people... and I much rather watch myself and my future grow then help build someone else’s as I work over time, being under paid and under appreciated... for I already have that down. I want to be happy, to surround myself with things that will build me up not knock me down. I love being contracted with people and companies, to build myself and to help others but when I’m at a bar trying to enjoy myself instead of working... please leave me alone... It must be nice to have a life all mapped out and not having to worry about bills but I enjoy my life and I enjoy how I live it... because it’s not about how much money we have or what car I drive and what I plan on doing... It’s about living in the moment, taking the people and situations in and learning from them the best that we can, to have a smile on our face and some pep in our step because nothing is guaranteed and we never know what is going to happen. I take this person as a learning tool... she pushes me, makes me want to punch her in the face at times... and after explaining to her gf that I needed space from her, for I am not a true fan. I understand that she in some facts might be jealous of the fact I’m doing it my way... for we are in the same field of design and I know she likes my work and tells me how talented I am... so thank you for recognizing and thank you for stretching my limits because without people like her, I wouldn’t get the push and pull of life that is needed from time to time.


Today:
Song: Abba - Dancing Queen
Quote of the Day: “I hate it when you have to be nice to someone you really want to Punch in the Face.” -Ecards
Fav Food Consumed Today: Spicy Chicken Caesar Salad
Craving: Milk and Cookies
Drinking: Strongbow
Random Fact: I’m 95% lover and 5% fighter... I love to love but if you cross me or the people I love... I just might surprise you.

Day 20

Play Date

Whoever said don’t play with your food?! Today, I had lots of plans and yet, sometimes things don’t work out the way we envision so we can either wallow or find our next adventure... Being exhausted from work and feeling overly stressed out I came home to take a nap when I got a text from Little Engine saying “Come Over!” So after taking a LoHo min, I got myself together stopped by the liquor store (for you should never go over empty handed)! When I got to C&A’s Underground Layer they had everything pretty much set up, burgers stuffed with pretzel crumbs and sweet potato fries w/ gorgonzola cheese! I brought over some cookies that we never ended up making but it was quite alright because we came up w/ a PB&J Frosty that was sure enough to get anyone HAMMERED! :)

Whenever I find myself over there, sitting around enjoying food, laughing till it hurts and having endless conversations, I feel full, that there is more to life than what is around me. I have always loved sitting around a table and finding out about life. As a kid most nights my family sat down, said grace, and ate together (that is if one of us wasn’t playing sports or going to some sort of practice). I am very grateful that when my dad came home and did his Mr. Roger’s act it was soon followed by us all coming together... It’s a way of getting to know someone, a way of sharing what’s happening and hearing people’s feelings and thoughts about the world around them. For getting to know and hear about someone or the stories they have is an adventure on its own and as for me there can never be to many adventures.

So maybe my day didn’t turn out how it was planned but I got realness, I got to smile, I got to feel whole for a moment and that is worth everything.


Today:
Song: Empire of the Sun - Walking on a Dream
Quote of the Day: “We are always running for the thrill of it.”
Fav Food Consumed Today: Little Engine’s Burgers
Craving: A Fresh Ball of Mozzarella
Drinking: Pear Cider
Random Fact: At the dinner table my Dad was always ask my brother and I about our day as he would tuck us into bed later that night, he would then make up stories featuring Poppy (me) and Katchy (brother) telling us about our day and how much we were loved.

Day 19

Working Together

So I have been commissioned to paint a door for Dave’s Cosmic Subs... Joel (my favorite old man and boss) has given me the opportunity to do something cosmically awesome and my guidelines are only that it represents the rock n roll era, for it will hang from the ceiling in the patio! After looking though and getting some ideas, I plan on incorporating the Beatles Yellow Submarine and Pink Floyd’s pink pig from the cover Animals... I also have ideas of colorful water drops and a few other 60/70‘s graphical ideas but what I can’t wait to do is collaborate with my friend and upcoming artist Katrina!

I met her through LiLo... (her younger sister) who is one amazing illustrating artist, every time I look at her work or drawings I get excited wishing I could come up with the things that she puts down on paper... I love getting together with equally creative people and making things come to life and even though she is young I feel like we can both teach each other a thing or two and have fun while making a cosmically awesome door come to life. I want to see people thrive, to grow specially if I believe in them and I think by reaching out and working with someone who is just as excited as I am will be a great mixture for something cosmically awesome!

Katrina, get ready!


Today:
Song: Bad Company - Shooting Star
Quote of the Day: “Proud to be Fuckin Weird, You Basic Bitches Can Not Compete!”
Fav Food Consumed Today: Coconut Thai Soup
Craving: Pancakes
Drinking: Fresca
Random Fact: When I was in high school, I had an art mentor who pushed me to find my greatness and told me to keep going... to forget about the negative people who said I would never do anything, it was her and the other people in the world that said I couldn’t that made me hungry for the greatness I think I can create.

Day 18

Time Off

The past few days I have wandered off being MIA from the forever whirlwind that I live in and made my way to Killah K’s... I’ve still had to work so I stop in and check on Mr. Squinz but have spent the last four nights out underneath the stars watching movies and working on art/writing...

I love the city, I love what I do... but sometimes it gets heavy and I need to breath... to get away and filter the air... Parts of me loving being out, meeting people, doing it and living it but I also love being a grandpa... I love reading, going through coupons, sitting out by the pool, leaning back and letting the sun beat down on me... I love writing, getting lost in my mind and staring off into space. I love bringing myself around K because we can have conversations for hours or just chill in silence and know that every little thing is ok... I like how we wake up early and watch CNN and find out facts about the world and that the only thing I worry about is what time I have to leave to make it to work... haha... It’s funny, I know I keep talking about her and bringing her up in blog posts and honestly, if we were sexually attracted to one another I think we would have found our match... but I guess that’s were soul friends kick in! Because there is no one better to talk girls with or be 100% yourself and I like that we are so different yet similar... it makes for an interesting duo!

I hope that you can be as lucky, to find people who you connect with and that when you feel overwhelmed or just need an extra smile are there ready for whatever.


Today:
Song: Chlöe Howl - Rumour
Quote of the Day: “And in the middle of my chaos, I found a harbor”
Fav Food Consumed Today: Noche - Trailer Park and Grilled Steak Taco
Craving: Oranges
Drinking: Diet Dr. Pepper
Random Fact: I love water... drinking it, bathing in it, swimming in it, being by it... it brings a sense of calm to my life which is probably why I’ve been finding my way to K’s

Day 17

Purrs N Paws

At the beginning of the month I was contacted asking if I wanted to donate a photo for an Paws N Fur an Animal Rescue Benefit that is happening Sunday March 24 at MSR. I love the animals specially the kitties!!! So, I went in asking what type of photo they wanted me to donate and after hearing they wanted something with animals and preferably with a cat and I scratched the idea of a photo and am doing a 2 graphic print series for the animals!

I think it is important to do something new or at least try when you have the time... so with my new king kitty tattoo I am creating 2 prints based off him and something that I think people would look at everyday and get a kick out of it! My idea, I will have 2 mid-sized prints framed and signed with the first having the phrase “You have me crawling up the walls like a cat in heat.” with kitty claw marks down a wall and small paw print! The second piece will say “King of the Castle” and have my king kitty with a castle in the background. The two original prints will go up for the silent auction which will start at 6pm on the 24th in which I hope they bring in some good money for the benefit. I will also be selling a handful of the 2 prints at my show on April 2 at Cru Urban Lounge, in which anyone that buys a print at $5 I will donate half of it back to the animals! So that way if you can’t make it to MSR you can still help out and get something to take home with you at the same time!

Animals have a way of connecting with us, giving a purpose without even trying... The way they can love you without an ounce of negativity, they put a smile on your face... And as an animal, you know you’re something special when people get down and talk in a cute funny little voice saying how cute and how much they love you. They are our best friends, seeing us at our best and worst... they never judge just love, as you love them back and play with them from time to time, becoming your loyal love. So, of course I want to help out because I know if I didn’t have my little guy, my world would be a little less colorful.

Hope to see you on there on the 24 and then again on April 2nd!


Today:
Song: Miike Snow - Animal
Quote of the Day: “Until one has loved an animal a part of one's soul remains unawakened. “ -Anatole France
Fav Food Consumed Today: PB Toast Crunch
Craving: French Toast
Drinking: Pear Juice
Random Fact: As a kid my best friend was my cat name Bullwinkle (aka. Bubby) he would go on adventures w/ me all the time, be there with me as I made forts and played by the river... he got me through a lot of my darkness as a child and was lucky to have him for 16 years of my life... Click here to read more.

Day 16

CirqueDeCabaret

Saturday was full of work and going, going, going... so when I got to Killah K’s Kastle I was ready to crash and just enjoy the weather while cookin up a Grill Master feast... Catching up and having our bro time all I wanted to do was enjoy my food coma and not leave the couch but I had plans to take some photos at Barry Brandon’s, Bedlam’s party CirqueDeCabaret and in showing support and knowing it would be a great time we got ourselves together and headed out.

I’m so glad that I got the energy to enjoy myself because the photos came out amazing... Jungle was full vibrancy and life, color was flying and so were the acts. I was enthralled by the silks and so was Killah K (she even talked and got information on taking classes and took sunday to check it out and is excited to get wrapped up in it)! I love watching and capturing people in their element and this was nothing short of majestic... for I love seeing people fly through the air and make gravity their bitch.

Taking everything in from the people to the color to the moment... to getting up and out of the house to enjoy something different, memorable and fascinating... this is what I live for... because let’s face it I am anything but dull!


Today:
Song: Die Antwoord - I Fink U Freeky
Quote of the Day: “When I get down on my knees it’s not to pray.” - Madonna
Fav Food Consumed Today: Grill Master time w/ K, Bacon stuffed Burgers
Craving: Reese Cup Milkshake
Drinking: Water
Random Fact: Challenge yourself to say Yes, to take a chance and see what happens!